I Seem to Sigh a Lot Recently

Melancholy bit me like a b*tch as the weekend waned. I got seemingly depressed over my progress and review scores (surprisingly) and then I saw this particular movie that just hit it home for me. It stuck to me like cocaine. It was addictive and I can't seem to let it go. Let alone the deluge of emotions that hit me when I saw it. I swore to myself before that I'll never be explicitly depressed again (well, not until I fail the board exams, I guess) but the scenes gave me a new perspective in life. And it prompted me to reflect on my past (briefly prior the emotional meltdown). I don't even know if I'm still making sense here.

Anyway, to sum this post short, I'm really sad. I know this emotional recession will diffuse sooner or later but I sometimes think that I'm better off if it won't. I seem to enjoy the pain at times. LOL at emo post.

Wish me luck.

I Just Got My Results

And to say that they were bad is an unspeakable understatement. Not that I expected them to be higher, I just wanted to see if I made any progress. Apparently, I didn't. The subject I fared the worst on? Auditing Problems. Surprise, surprise. LOL.

Anwyay, it gave me a new perspective and that is to study my ass off to infinity and to stop sleeping altogether. That ought'a fix my losing streak. LOL. I did get my gear up last week but I think it still wasn't quite enough. Although I did finish a few subjects that I really despised before (JV and HTM Investments), a festering gut feeling left me questioning: Am I really giving it my all?

And on Saturday, I attended a Business Law class in my other review center and I erred on a majority of the questions. I was really caught off guard! Next goal: to lower my expectations a notch.. or maybe ten.

On A Glacial Pace

Yeah.

That's how I'm progressing with the review so far. We just had our first pre-board exams today and I've never felt so inane. Seriously. I should've been able to get a few points here and there but that's not (real) my goal. Haha! I'm expecting too much. Anyway, I need to get back on track pronto. However, I need my little slack time too. I just had an exhausting day and I deserve (and enjoy) every minute I'm spending on this post. I think.

I also think that my writing has gotten worse since I grew out of my 'emo-phase'. I may not sound as angry but consequently, my posts are getting less interesting. Oh well. I think that's what happens when we confine ourselves to excessive information analyses. We trade off our creative hemispheres for logic (as if!). And I don't like that at all.

Gosh. I cannot get my points across clearly today. I think I'm having brain hemorrhages beacuse I'm thinking too much. I have to stop here. Take care.